A few months ago, I made a Musing dismantling the virtue of Loyalty. Today, I want to take a closer look at Trust.
For the last week, the subject of trust has been percolating in my personal field. It came under closer introspection, because I have fallen into the disgrace of breaching confidentiality (even tho I did so in complete anonymity of the person involved, but this is about the principle of expectations, which I failed to honor).
As I have been sitting in the searing pain of trauma for days now, feeling the sting of shame and failure…. I searched deeply for resolution.
What I have come to realize this morning is, that both Loyalty and Trust are prized virtues in the world of Ego, or what we know as the human persona or play character.
It’s the character that is shrouded in shadows and secrets, and Trust only finds meaningful application in a reality of shadows and secrets.
So, I am asking myself today… how deeply involved do I want to be with that world? Do I really want to forge connections with people who nurture their shadows and secrets and expect me to play the role of protecting those secrets? No, I do not. I do not want to be involved in such connections.
As I am writing these words, an old Bible verse comes to mind, for which I now see a much clearer understanding in light of this contrasting situation.
“Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?” 2.Cor 6:14
Take out the word ‘unbelievers’ and exchange it with ‘3D Persona’ or Ego. What fellowship can be had with a person or persona who’s existence was forged and shaped by darkness (traumas, shadows, secrets, drama)… such a persona will be offended continually, because their identity is directly attached to their traumas.
On the other hand, the person embracing ‘transparency’, doing the Shadow Work and illuminating their secrets with light, does not need your Trust, because there is nothing to protect. Trust holds no vital role for someone living in the light.
My only fault is that I have developed such ‘transparency’ and speak so openly about my life, that I forgot in that moment that not everyone lives that way.
I recall something being written about Jesus in the Bible, “But Jesus would not enTRUST himself to them, for he knew all people.” … and their shadows. I this verse finally makes sense.
