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This is a comment I made under a Youtube video 6 months ago, and I will post the link to that video below for context. We see a lot of people shifting lanes between Christianity and the New Age. Have you ever asked yourself why this happens? This is my response to the Youtube video.

The way I see it (and have experienced it in my life), the problem you are trying to address here isn’t actually with either focus on Yeshua or the New Age. Those are just the band-aids we seek out for our Soul dysfunction (you may call it sin if you like). The reason why I would like to elaborate on this some more, is because I know a lot of angry Jesus loving Christians, who project their psychological shadow on others in judgement.

What is the real problem with humanity? What is this sin that we are burdened with as soon as we are birthed into this world? It’s ancestral trauma that gets passed down to us to the 3rd and 4th generation. It’s not a “moral” deficiency, but a psychological deficiency. We have been traumatized to the point where we will Self abandon. The clinical term for this is “dissociation”… our brain consciousness is literally split in two, and half of it is in complete amnesia. I am referring to the Sub-Conscious mind, or the Soul.

There is a saying by Shahida Arabi that goes like this: “A child that’s being abused by it’s parents, doesn’t stop loving it’s parents, it stops loving itself”.

And THIS is the “sin” that destroys us. I have found that Yeshua dying on the cross does not help with this problem, it requires some serious shadow work and psycho analysis, to unearth and transmute the “self condemnation” we hold in the deepest parts of our Soul. And YOU can and must do this yourself. You must follow Yeshua’s path exactly as He walked it. He can’t do for you, what you have to do for yourself… and that is develop a relationship with your SELF… bring that traumatized, fragmented Soul back to wholeness, by coming face to face with your subconscious trauma shadows. This is what Yeshua encountered in the wilderness for 40 days and 40 nights. For He also had his shadows (”wild beasts”) to confront, to know and bring himself into the wholeness of Christ Consciousness.

In fact, Ephesians 2:14 is the reference to this exact thing I am trying to explain. Jesus made the TWO brain hemispheres as ONE and having broken down the barrier of the partition of hostility (in his mind), having annulled in His nature the law of commandments in ordinances (or judgement of good and evil), so that He might create in Himself the two into one new man, making peace.

He became a unified consciousness, or whole brained person… where the left and right brain or masculine ego and feminine soul work in harmony. I hope this helps. I wish you all the best for your journey of the Soul.

https://www.youtube. … /watch?v=TPq2M3gzSlU

I know we are very prone to constantly scrutinize ourselves for “bad” or “negative” traits in our behavior, we were heavily conditioned to do that. But, I want to bring it outside of the spiritual arena for a moment and just normalize our need for controlling things and situations.

At a very physiological level, these mechanisms ensured our safe keeping and survival, and that is NOT negative at all. We are naturally “wired” to function this way. If we lacked the ability to control or bring balance to chaotic situations we would not have survived this long.

Now granted, our nervous system has kind of gone into excessive hyper overdrive mode, because this world is NOT a “safe” place. This is a completely NORMAL response, humanly speaking. So give yourself a little grace here.

With the gift of awakened awareness tho, we can look at this from a higher perspective and try and find ways of creating that personal “inner” SAFE space (through meditating, or just doing something with your hands that is fun) in order to bring down the hyper vigilance of the nervous system over time.

This will increase the ability to “control” our responses in a more balanced way. You see, we will always be “controlling” something, but it will now be more inward focused, rather than trying to control external situations. It is not possible to completely shut off a normal bodily function of the nervous system, and we are not meant to do that. ❤

Sending a message through the intercom to the people at the back of the bus…

“Behold, I am with you all the days 𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗹 the completion of the age”. Words of Jesus from Matthew 28:20

The age of Pisces is signing off to the age of Aquarius, and so is Jesus.

Get used to it people. Jesus wasn’t meant to hold your hand perpetually.
Your last stop to unboard is coming up soon. ❤

I want to expand on the topic of trust some more this morning. I have seen a couple of memes and posts circulating about “Trust, Loyalty and Respect, Mess Up 1 and you lose all 3”.

I have previously mentioned that these are virtues used to bolster and shore up our wounded ego persona, to protect us.
I refer to them as the 3 Metals (in alchemy terminology) of the lower 3 Chakras - we can call them Brass, Steel and Titanium. Basically the stuff military (department of defense) equipment is made of.

These elements are pillars of the Root, Sacral and Solar Plexus energy centers, responsible for safety and security, and they build a pretty good and impenetrable fortress… but they also keep us confined in a very contracted, small space.

They are just below and outside of the 💚 chakra center. To reach the more expansive state (unconditional love) of the heart chakra, we have to deal with the debris (shadow, trauma, wounds) held inside the fortress of the lower 3 chakras.

There are situations in life where having the safety and security of the military bunker of strict “boundaries” is essential, to stop the constant inflow of abuse… to gain a safe space to allow the nervous system to dial down enough so we can focus on healing the long term complex traumas.

Once a person has done significant shadow work, the need and requirement for Trust, Loyalty and Respect falls away… because in the process of healing the Self, one will regain Self Trust, Loyalty to Self and Self Respect… to the point where it is no longer needed or required from others.

*I don’t NEED anything from you, for me to be OK! That’s the goal to living a peaceful and harmonious life, and ending the cycle of dysfunctional co-dependency.

Codependency is an unhealthy dependence on relationships. The co-dependent will do anything to hold on to a relationship or friendship; to avoid the feeling of abandonment. An extreme need for approval and recognition. A sense of guilt when asserting themselves. A compelling need to control others.

Today, I no longer need to trade in the commodities market of Trust and Loyalty; I mostly trade in Unconditional Love (Full heart expansion).

It might shock you when I say, I do NOT trust you! I do not trust anyone, because nobody is worthy of Trust (trustworthy). As humans, we lack the perfection that prevents us from never making a mistake in a relationship.

I do NOT trust you, but I Love you! Which is an entirely different thing.

I learned this in the hard school of the Twinflame connection, when I went through a period of time where I was served betrayal and rejection for breakfast, lunch and supper.

Unlike conventional relationships, that you can distance and divorce yourself from with strict boundaries… this is impossible with a One Soul connection of a Twin Flame dynamic. You are tethered energetically to your problem. Think of the conjoined Twins Abby and Brittany Hensel.

So when I could not run away from my own shadows and hide in the bunker, the ego got stomped on for a very long time, to break it down and soften it’s firewall.

Thankfully, my Crown chakra had opened before the betrayal happened, and I had guidance from my higher Self. The two ‘factions’ embroiled within me had the softening effect and influence of my Soul Chakra. And so, I worked through it over the course of the last 4 years.

I see an example of this in Jesus’ life when he hung on the cross and offered open-hearted forgiveness to his betrayers… when he cried out - “Father forgive them, for they know not what they do”… he was drawing on the influence of his Soul chakra, his higher Self… for surely his lower self would have given him the counsel of “Fuck them all” with no second chances granted.

A few months ago, I made a Musing dismantling the virtue of Loyalty. Today, I want to take a closer look at Trust.

For the last week, the subject of trust has been percolating in my personal field. It came under closer introspection, because I have fallen into the disgrace of breaching confidentiality (even tho I did so in complete anonymity of the person involved, but this is about the principle of expectations, which I failed to honor).

As I have been sitting in the searing pain of trauma for days now, feeling the sting of shame and failure…. I searched deeply for resolution.

What I have come to realize this morning is, that both Loyalty and Trust are prized virtues in the world of Ego, or what we know as the human persona or play character.

It’s the character that is shrouded in shadows and secrets, and Trust only finds meaningful application in a reality of shadows and secrets.

So, I am asking myself today… how deeply involved do I want to be with that world? Do I really want to forge connections with people who nurture their shadows and secrets and expect me to play the role of protecting those secrets? No, I do not. I do not want to be involved in such connections.

As I am writing these words, an old Bible verse comes to mind, for which I now see a much clearer understanding in light of this contrasting situation.

“Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?” 2.Cor 6:14

Take out the word ‘unbelievers’ and exchange it with ‘3D Persona’ or Ego. What fellowship can be had with a person or persona who’s existence was forged and shaped by darkness (traumas, shadows, secrets, drama)… such a persona will be offended continually, because their identity is directly attached to their traumas.

On the other hand, the person embracing ‘transparency’, doing the Shadow Work and illuminating their secrets with light, does not need your Trust, because there is nothing to protect. Trust holds no vital role for someone living in the light.

My only fault is that I have developed such ‘transparency’ and speak so openly about my life, that I forgot in that moment that not everyone lives that way.

I recall something being written about Jesus in the Bible, “But Jesus would not enTRUST himself to them, for he knew all people.” … and their shadows. I this verse finally makes sense.