To continue in the awareness that "God is solely God, and we are not... but are mere creations of God"... can have us potentially stuck in an unconscious "waiting" stance, and "victim-hood" about the affairs of this life.
The unconscious habit of 'talking over people' or having the 'need to reply' is actually rooted in childhood trauma. The child that has always been dismissed or invalidated, when grown up "just wants to be heard". This is completely subconscious and few people are even aware they are doing this.
I worked at this relationship with Jesus for 35 years, and in the end I found myself still 'unfulfilled' for some reason. I uttered a prayer of disillusionment, which eventually became answered. And after sort of experiencing a lifequake (in answer to my prayer), I realized that I was never meant to have a relationship with Jesus... but rather with 'myself'.
"But if you have bitter jealousy (envy) and contention (rivalry, selfish ambition) in your hearts, do not pride yourselves on it and thus be in defiance of and false to the Truth." James 3:14 I am offering a more meaningful interpretation so you can heal.